ni xiang yao de wo que bu nen gou gei ni wo quan bu,

wo nen gei de que you bu shi ni xiang yao yong you de,

wo men bu shi he, ye bu gan kai shi,

tan shi mei dan kan dao ni ni jiu hui ba wo de xing zha shui,

ni de xing dong que hui ba wo de xing dou qiang tiao le,

dan wo de xing mei che que tui wo shou zhe mei ke neng,

dan wo bu xiang sing yue xiang shi shi kan,

tao zhui hou wo de xing you bei shou hai..

today suppose to have so many things to blog as these few days, quite a number of 'events' occurs in a few hours of my life.. like... i went to hartz chicken and get sick of eating too much and dan vomitted.. today badminton competition match and result.. as well as how i celebrated merdeka!! and b4 i 4get, today's dharma club thingy... haha.. but....

COMING SOON...

soli la.. not this time... coz not in the mood.. T.T

walking along a road, thinking and debating with myself.. trying to get the right answer... yes o no??!! plz give me an answer.. do u know how suffering i m now? all the emotion mix up together.. the pain is unbearable!! it's killing me!!

when i feel like crying, i cant.. 'nan ren ta zhang fu, liu xue bu liu lei'.. i dunnoe wat other thing i can do ease the pain.. jz wish to have a long walk at a beach.. scream my lung out to release all my pain... to make me feel better.. and wish to hav sum1 to share everything with.. but it's hard..

the sadness and the sorrow is making my life worse.. why u hav to do this to me? at least give me an answer.. i dun mind if it's a no... but a least, a yes o a no.. coz i cant stand the pain as it starts to eat up my sanity!!

letting go it's not as easy as u think it is.. trying to forget u.. i will.. and letting go, i WILL... coz i cant stand the pain anymore..

whenever i look at u, u melt my heart and soul.. whenever i think of u, i feel so miserably insane!! why it has to be so complicated?! i jz dun understand.. but trust me, i m learning to let go.. and i hope i m making the right move..

LOVE cannot b forced.. and love cannot stand with only one party.. so letting go will b the best choose for us i think.. and...................................................................................................
i hope u can find ur own happiness....

wondering wat's going on in my life? sumthing tat i longed to ask for sooooooo longggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg already been asked!! wat a relief!! yeah.. haha.. but the out come, might hurt more than a woman give birth!! haha...

today sch reopen.. so, getting test paper was today's main agenda.. haha.. followed by, facing the music.. hmm.. the music is sumthing like R&B, POP, Jazz, classical, rock all combine together.. haha.. hmm.. today i hav received my maths and chemistry paper bak.. my chemistry paper wasnt tat good.. means, nid more work.. haha.. still laugh!! ngaiti...

hmm.. gonna sign off now.. hav sum other thing havent do and just got a bad respond... bo sim now...

yeah!!! finally, the prefect dinner is over!! got me? OVER!!!!!!!! means no more hectic work!! hoo-ray!!! time for PARTTTIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEE....

the dinner went well of coz.. under PREFCTORIAL BOARD, thing will always b better than .......... *fill in the blank plz*... haha... everyone was stuningly beautiful... *wowwwwww* leng loi and leng zai r everywhere.. but of coz, there were some spoiled this atmosphere.. wearing NIGHTDRESS to make it sound better.. eh HALO!!! this is not some cheap dinner ok? mind ur attire plz..

the food is ok.. i hav to sit on the VIP table.. dun feel tat comfortable.. haha.. u know la.. if u sit there, u hav to filter ur word over and over again b4 speak.. haha.. so i was here and there in the middle of the show.. yeah.. having fun of coz.. the best part was tat, i gav speech without script.. haha.. my first time.. who inspire me to do tat? still remember the VIP tat came for our Sport Day? she inspire me to do tat.. haha..

it was fun la.. but seriously, i was tat happy with it.. coz some o part of the exciting events went awkward due to some human and technical error.. haiz.. but the rest, it's ok lo.. like tat food... and the others.. but PA system sux the most!!! haiz...

wan more pics? HELL YEAH!! SCROLL DOWN NOW!!

CHENG.......

CHENG.........

CHENG.....

COMING SOON...

De' Crimsom

like wat i hav promised, i will show u where i hang out while 'curi tulang'.. haha... if u din read my previous post, then u might nvr catch wat i m trying to say.. haha..

let me continue my story.. i went to De' Crimson to find pei, sharon, jenna and the rest since i was late.. haha.. we went there to celebrate mei sien and luan jia's birthday... for me, i hav another purpose.. to keep myself away from the hectic atmosphere.. to open up a breathing space for myself b4 i run out of air.. haha.. tat nite i dunnoe why i felt so cold.. so i wore ashweein's jacket.. the red one.. soli ashweein.. haha...

De' Crimson is situated at the old AHA cafe.. same row as the Chui Hua Lou.. the service over there is quite good.. thumbs up for the workers!! the food.. i dare not to comment as i din order anything.. but according to my frens, it's nice.. the drink, ok la.... not to say so good o so bad.. the price, ok la...... u can try there.. kinda nice..

the interior design of De' Crimson..

the sign board.. it's located at the old AHA cafe *same row as Chui Hua Lou*
nice chair..
nice atmosphere..
i look this pic.. why? coz sharon looks.... different.. haha.. jenna, u ourshine her in this pic.. well done..
leng loi...
the 80s' pic...
birthday gals.. haha..
luan jua and mei sex...
2 sista...

this one is the 70s' pic..

sexy babe.. cheese..
er.. seems like i m at north pole..
now, i visit the south pole.. haha..

all the pics r taken by some other ppl.. i took it from their blog o friendster as my camera has some problem... *i mentioned this b4 in the previous post*..

this few days, i was really busy with prefectorial board dinner le.. but not only me la.. all the committee members did their best.. well done...

who are in the committee board? haha.. ok.. ngee ting, ashweein, daniel, me, mei lin, chin lin and summore..we plan the dinner program, brain storming on wat to giv as door gift.. and problem comes, solution needs to arrive at the speed of light.. as we were having exam last week, we can hav any meeting to discuss the dinner.. so , it means tat we hav only ONE week to pull everything together.. and WE DID IT!! thanks, ewveryone!!

hmm.. today suppose to hav another hectic day.. but i cancelled all my plan.. i dun feel quite well here.. prevent myself getting sick.. cant affort tat as trial exam is around the corner.. ah!! STPM!! get away from me!!

luckily, my frens helped me by pulling me from the hectic hurricane.. but it cant last long as the hurricane is really strong and keeps on sucking me into the spinning air inside.. haha...

putting aside all the hectic planning, i went to celebrate mei sien and luan jia's birthday... HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAL *in advance*... i was late coz hav to go here and there.. haha...but i was there at last.. having fun.. but since i was kinda sick, it reduces the funness.. haha.. thanks everyone for inviting me!! it helps a lot...

wanna know where we went?

COMING SOON!!

aHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! just feel like shouting as loud as possible!! feel like going for a long break at a peaceful island!!!

no stress in life.. no problem comes and disturb u for a short while.. tat will be great!! of coz, life without uphill task will b as dull as.... *cant think of any*...

study, hav to cope as i m ages away from the syllabus.. it's easy to say study hard then thing will b turn out fine.. duties, i quite like it as i really learn a lot from there.. and it's a challenge for me.. add in more colours into my life..

relationship.. so so... there's up, there's down too.. dunnoe wat's the problem is.. and dunnoe how to solve it.. ya, sumtimes i m a bit bossy but doesnt mean i m trying to take over u.. i still respect u as u r 'higher' than me. no doubt of tat.. jz tat, sumtimes, i make some decision with the advice of other 'colleagues' to solve some problem that we encountered.. coz i dun wan u to worry too much as u hav so many thing to handle.. and i try to b more independent rather than running to u whenever i m down.. NO!! that doesnt mean i wanna replace u o overtake u.. hierarchy is there and i know where i stand.. i just wanna do the best i can to prove to the others that i m capable of doing stuff...

home sweet home.. how sweet is ur home? haiz.. if it's noisily merry, i will think it's too noisy.. if it's as quiet as grave yard, i will feel tat it's weird.. haiz.. dunnoe wat's wrong with me.. crazy? mayb a bit.. going to b one soon....